I'm loving it!

Its been more than a month since I started going to work again. Earlier I would come back 2 hours earlier and since April I leave by 7am and reach home by 6pm. Nishka has adjusted well to this new routine. Although she clings to me when I reach back home in the evenings. Going to the loo becomes next to impossible if she sees me. And since a week she has started this new habit of sucking my cheek as if kissing me when I come back home. The first day it happened I hadn't even washed my face. Second day I washed my face also and again she did that. And now it has become a routine. I just love the way she emotes her love towards me.

With the evening hours being divided between Anirudh and Nishka and not in equal ratio as Nishka is taking away the bigger chunk of it, I feel bad about the little time I'm getting to spend with Betu. I'm trying to think of ways for more bonding time with him over the weekend at least. One thought is to go for morning walks together. Another thought is  to bake something together. He really loves to be there and help me out when I'm preparing something for baking. We haven't painted together in a long time too. As I'm writing this so many thoughts are coming to my mind. So this weekend definitely is going to be good :)

Anirudh is as usual very loving towards Nishka. Other day she was trying to lean backwards when lying in my lap to the point that she would have fallen off if I wouldnt have held her tightly. So I said "Nishku...pitti khani hai?" And Betu immediately said "Usko pitti nahi karna. Uske naam ki pitti bhi mujhe de dena." I felt so overwhelmed looking at his love for her and also thought that this girl is going to be spoilt rotten by such a loving brother.

Nishka has started moving a lot lately..turning sides, flipping over, showing her excitement by moving her legs and hands in excitement. And since a week so many times I have found her at the edge of the bed at night. The first day it happened I felt something touching me near my calf. I woke up startled. And I saw her there, fully awake and touching my legs. I was so surprised as to how she reached there and pulled her up. And put an extra pillow towards the foot of the bed.

And since that day so many times I have found her completely rotated, or again found her near my legs and I've to pull her up number of times during night. And today morning when I woke up at 5:30am I didn't find her next to me and when I looked towards the foot of the bed she wasn't there also. This startled me and as I was about to get up I saw her sitting in hubby's lap. And I asked a little bewildered "What happened?" And hubby replied "Nothing..she was up and playing so I took her in my lap". Then about 15-20 min later when Betu was up too, I saw them lying next to each other with Nishka cuddling with him and babbling away. And these are the moments when I feel such bliss and thank God for giving me such lovely children.

Another new thing that Nishka does lately is trying to grab whatever I'm eating. She wants to eat it too. Funniest part is when the look on her face when she sees me picking something up and instead of putting in her mouth, eating it myself. She will follow my hand with her eyes and after I would have eaten it she would look up at me and start smacking her lips. As if conveying that she expected  I would give her something to eat too. If I'm having water, juice or tea...she wants to hold the glass or mug. If she is in my lap when I'm having my dinner, she tries to grab the plate.

Its so much fun to see her growing up. I'm simply loving the motherhood...once again.

And we started to have khichdi

I started daliya-daal khichdi for Nishka from April 2nd. That's her evening meal addition. She enjoys eating it so far. *Touch wood*
She gets really excited when she sees the bowl in my hand and its so difficult not to spill while feeding her.

You are 6 months young!

As I write the post title, I actually calculated again using my fingers if its really been 6 months. It seems too soon. Really really soon. You were just born my darling. Where did the time fly?

You have been a really easy baby so far. *Touch wood*. And a happy one at that too. It just brightens up my morning to see you giving me your bug happy smiles the moment you wake up. And then I forgive you for not letting me sleep well through the night :D Although mostly you sleep for good 5 hours at a stretch but there are days when you toss and turn and are fussy every 1.5-2 hours.

You had started rolling both ways since a month now. But there was a big pause until a few days ago. If we would lay you down on your tummy, you would instantly roll over to your back. Now you have again started to roll on your tummy. And now you even try to scoot a bit forward but start whining as you are not able to.

I made rice kheer for you in the evening and you relished it sitting in Dadu's lap with Dadu feeding you. You liked it but we gave only two spoonfuls as we felt the milk might be too heavy for you to digest especially after the severe dysentery that you had suffered from a week back. That was one horrifying episode for me which I would rather forget.

You had been quite fussy at milk times and were generally cranky. You were running slight fever since March 22 night. Next day on March 23 we took you to the doc and he said most likely it seems its viral but he still wanted us to keep a watch and take a urine sample. In the afternoon when you pooped and I opened your diaper to change, I saw red. Not little bit but huge amounts. My head started to spin. I was not sure what I was seeing is true. I switched on the lights and again saw. I still didn't want to believe what was in front of my eyes. I called your Dadu. And I asked him if he also thinks its blood. I so wanted someone to tell me that no it isn't blood. Your whole diaper was red.

I was crying while cleaning you up. I immediately called the doc and he gave me a medicine name and asked us to start it immediately and to bring you over in the evening. Your Dadu immediately went down and brought the medicine. You were so cranky and fussy and I kept holding you in my arms. It took one day before blood stopped coming in your poop. And till today your motion isn't back to what it used to be. But seeing you happy and back to your normal mood I'm not worrying much.

Some things that I would like to note down are:

 - When we make you sit, you are able to sit for about 20-30 seconds before you start to topple over. With back support you can sit for longer.

 - You have a few of your favourite toys. One pink teddy bear is actually from the time when your Bhaiyyu was as young as you are now. And the other two have been gifted to you by Preeti Mausi.

 - You have been teething since about 2 weeks now and we bought a teether for your yesterday which you really enjoy chewing on to.

 - You love it when we sit you in a stroller and take you around in the house itself.

 - You have been playing a game since you were about 4 months. I would make you sit on my thigh with your leg touching the bed. And you would start swaying yourself by pressing your legs on the bed. You just love this game till date. And now you sometimes keep bouncing sitting on my leg. Its so cute to see you making games for yourself.

Grow up well my jaan.

Happy Birthday Betu

You turned 8 today. 8 - That's a big number. You are really a big boy now. And when I look back I wonder how fast these 8 years have flown by. And this year is a special birthday for you as you have a baby sister too. I woke up today morning and left you sleeping next to each other. When I returned to the bedroom you both were awake and playing with each other. I just smiled. A really happy smile. And then I wished you and you wanted Nishku to give you a puchhi too. So I brought her lips to your cheek and she also kissed you a happy birthday. You were so happy. And coincidentally she babbled something to the sound of "Bhuu...gua.." And you happily declared that she also wished you happy birthday.

Seeing you so happy in the morning made me so happy too. And when I told you I had made your favourite aata halwa, you asked me "Kishmish daali hai na?" (You have added raisin also?") And when I said "yes" you were super happy. We offered the halwa first to bhagwanji and you sang the Gayatri mantra. And then relished the halwa. And then it was time for me to leave for work. With the promise of buying your gift and taking you out for a dinner, I left for work leaving you in a happy mood.

May you always be happy and healthy my jaan. We all love you loads!

I want papa!

Yesterday hubby came home quite late. And mostly he hold Nishka after freshening up. But yesterday I had to do something urgently and asked him to hold her for 5 min. When I came back and extended my arms to take Nishka back, she simply turned away from me. Me and hubby both were surprised. This is the first time she communicated so clearly about wanting to stay in her papa's arms. I was in a way happy to see the bond developing between them.

And she did another thing which surprised us. She would love to play with Anirudh and would always be happy whenever Anirudh would hold her. But not yesterday. She would start getting fussy the moment he would hold her. And Anirudh was feeling so sad about it. I tried to console him that maybe she is just cranky because of teething. But still he didn't buy that logic completely. But today morning Nishka was as playful with Anirudh like she is usually. So betu is happy again :)

Jab meri shaadi hogi...

Yesterday me and Betu were reminiscing about the times when Nishku was in the tummy. And suddenly he said - "Mumma, aap mujhe bhi roti banana sikha do."(Mumma, teach me how to make a chapati - Indian bread). I asked him why? He replied "Jab main bada hoyunga, aur meri shaadi hogi, main bhi apni wife ke liye roti banayunga." (When I will grow up and get married, I'll also make chapatti's for my wife).

I had such a big smile on my face hearing this. He was recalling my pregnancy days when I was on bed rest and the days when cook would be off, hubby would make roti for me. I hope that Betu has these sweet thoughts when he grows up too. His wife would be so lucky :)

Nishka rolled over!!

Yay! She finally rolled over! She had been rolling over from tummy to back since some time but today she was lying on her back and suddenly she rolled over to her tummy. And she loved it so much that she kept at it every 5 min. And looking at us all so happy, she was smiling away too. Muaah..you are such a cutie pie Nishku.

So its time now to keep those antennas working hard lest she falls from the bed.

After rolling over couple of times she was trying to scoot forward too but would start crying when she couldn't move. Partially because her hand was still stuck under her chest :)