Tuesday, May 24, 2011

Your bhaiyya felt you

Today morning your movements were pretty strong. I was able to feel them from outside as well. Your bhaiyya was sitting next to me so I took his hand and kept it on the tummy. For few seconds we waited and you finally moved again. Your bhaiyya could feel you. He had a big smile on his face. I waited for him to say something but he didn't say anything. When I asked him if he felt your movements only then he confirmed. He moved around his legs to show how you might be moving your legs around :)

When I told your papa that Anirudh felt you move, he asked me if you were still moving. But by that time you had gone quiet. So your papa is still waiting for the moment. Such a tease you already are Shona :)

(@18 Weeks 4 Days)

Sunday, May 22, 2011

I can feel you

Hi Shona baby!

I can feel you since yesterday evening. And I'm 100% sure its you and not anything else.

Earlier when I used to have the similar sensation of movement I wasn't sure if it was you or gas as they commonly say. Now I know that flutter was because of you moving around.

Your movements are not much strong right now. Its just a soft little feeling. I can feel you move only when I'm lying on my back. Or sitting in a way which puts little pressure on my tummy for e.g. folding my legs to my chest.

I'm so happy! Finally I can feel you! :)

Your bhaiyya came back home yesterday night and he has been showering you with kisses since then. Every time he is near me, he kisses you multiple times. He asked me yesterday if I can feel you and when I told him yes, he wanted to know when will he be able to feel you move too. Since I didn't know myself how long will it take to feel your movements from outside, I told him a tentative period of 2 weeks and now he is counting the days :)

(@18 Weeks 2 days)

Friday, May 20, 2011

You are about 5 and 1/2 inches

Hi Shona.

You are 18 weeks now. Am so excited to think I'm almost halfway through. And I guess more excited that I'm just a week away from the 19th week ultrasound. We all will get to see you again!! Yay!!

The weekly newsletter told me that you are busy flexing your arms and legs — movements that I'll start noticing more and more in the weeks ahead. How eagerly I'm waiting to feel them Shona.

Your papa sometimes teases me by mimicking me the way I talk to you. He is so  funny and cute :)

Your bhaiyya is away since the past week to his bua's place spending his summer holidays with his cousins in Faridabad. I'm sure you are missing his daily good mornings and kisses :) I surely am missing him a lot. I so want to cuddle and snuggle with him. He is coming back tomorrow and am feeling quite happy. Also happy that he was able to spend good happy enjoyable times with his cousins.

(@18 Weeks)

Thursday, May 19, 2011

Going to be a big brother - 2

Hi bachha.

You have been very excited once I shared the news of having a baby in the house soon. You have so many questions to ask and are so concerned about me and my health.

Your papa was not sure if we should take you to our first ultrasound as at 6 weeks the baby looks like just a blob. He thought you might feel the baby would look like a baby even at this stage and might be a little disturbed seeing that its nothing like how you see the full grown babies. But I was somehow insistent and thought that you will understand. Before the ultrasound I had told you that we will not be able to make out anything. And asked you if you still want to go. You said a definite yes. After the ultrasound when we asked you about your reaction you didn't have anything specific to say. But we could see you were happy to be part of it all.

Many a times you started getting ready on your own saying how will you be a big boy unless you start doing things yourself. I can see that you are already imagining yourself in the shoes of a big brother. You understand that there may be a lot of things you will need to do on your own as mumma will be busy with the small baby. When did you mature up so much my pyaru?

Every night at bedtime, instead of hearing the usual stories, you want to hear baby stories. Since I am unable to think of baby stories till the baby arrives, I tell you what you used to do when you were a baby yourself. It excites you and you keep asking me if shona baby will also do the same things as you did. :)

You pick a random age month and ask me what you used to do that age. For e.g. you will ask me what I used to do when I was 8 months old or 1 year 3 months old, so on and so forth. There are some things I remember off hand for others I've to really think hard.

Your biggest concern initially was and I have a feeling it still is, is how will you stay without me when I have to go the hospital to deliver the baby. You ask me again and again how many days will you have to sleep without me. And I can see a sadness on your face when I say maybe 3-4 days. I can understand your concern but at the same time I'm sure you will manage fine. You are already my big bachha.

Love you meetha!

Tuesday, May 17, 2011

Missing you

Hi bachha.

You have gone to spend few days with your Bua and your cousins since Saturday night. At one hand we feel happy that you are having a good time and on the other hand we miss you around in the house.

And this time your papa also said so. He would never be vocal about it earlier until yesterday. He said "Pata nahi kyun chinta si rahti hai.." (Don't know why but there is a little anxiety in the mind).

I miss cuddling with you in the mornings. I miss your tantrums. I miss your masti. Your questions...our fights...I just miss you my jaan.

But however much I want you to come back ASAP I know you are having a good time. And I want you to enjoy to the fullest. So I'm going to hold on to my feelings and let you come back whenever you want to. Love you sweeta!

Tuesday, May 10, 2011

Going to be a big brother - 1

Hi Meethu, my jaan.

Since last year you have been asking us for a baby again and again. And one day I told you that we will have a baby after you turn 7 years. Later I realised I did a mistake there as you started to announce to the world about it and everyone started to look at me expectantly if I have some news to share whereas I had none.

So two-three months before your birthday you started prodding me how many days after your birthday will we have a baby in the house. And I had to talk to you in detail and explain a lot to let you know that we do not know. You were not happy. In fact you were very angry.

And soon after we realised I was pregnant. Since it was very initial phase we didn't tell you thinking you will be so excited that you will tell the whole world whereas we wanted to wait for at least one month to go by before we share with people other than close relatives. My physical play activities with you were intentionally reduced quite a bit. You were not liking it. We would just say Mumma is not well.

And then one day you got really really angry at me telling me I don't play with you at all these days. And if I'm so unwell why don't I go to a doctor and get medicines. I tried to cajole you, distract you but you would hear nothing of it. And then I told you. It was on Feb 27, 2011. I still remember the expression you had on your face. Although for a few seconds only. Because soon you got back into your angry mode and said that I was lying to you to make you feel happy. It took me good 5 min to convince you it was true. That you were going to be a big brother.

And then your whole mood changed. You were happy in a very different way. You wanted to know when did we do the baby making activity :) And why didn't we tell you when we did. I had no answers for that then but am sure when you grow up you will understand yourself.

You started giving me instructions on the dos and donts. I should sit softly. I should not stand. I should not tell office people as everyone will then come and talk to me and that will make me tired. So on and so forth. I was quite surprised as I didn't know where you learnt all this from.

That day you must have kissed my tummy at least 50 times. And then made it a routine to kiss my tummy or rather kiss the baby every morning and greet the baby saying "Good Morning".

Monday, May 9, 2011

You are about 4 and a half inches long

How eagerly I look forward to the weekly updates from Baby Center telling me the developments in you.

The newsletter says you are 4 and 1/2 inches long. Your legs are more developed and head is more erect and your scalp pattern has started developing although there are no hair yet. Your toe nails have started developing.

Soon I will be able to feel you moving inside and how anxiously I am waiting for it. And I think about 5-6 days ago I did feel your move when I absentmindedly lied down on my tummy. I am 90% sure it was you as it definitely didn't feel like gas.

And its just not me. Your bhaiyya is also eager to feel your movements. Today morning he asked me if he will be allowed to come and meet you at the hospital once you are out of my tummy. And when I said yes, you should have seen the spark in his eyes. I can feel he is also a little concerned how will he sleep without me when I'm in the hospital as he sleeps snuggled into me till date. But I'm sure he will manage. I've heard kids suddenly maturing at such times.

(@16 Weeks 3 Days)

Saturday, May 7, 2011

Could I have asked for more?

I just can't describe what I felt when I saw this.

Getting this from a 7 year old is not what I expected at all.

Love you so much my jaan! I love you so much!

~~ Keep Smiling! ~~

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